Splitting into the whole
My reception of the world feels overwhelming. I hear the sockets buzz. Pleasant sounds become intrusive. Unwanted thoughts make me feel sick, and it’s as if my blood is trying to escape through my veins. There’s an internal trembling tone ranging from happiness, anger, torture, fighting, and sensuality. I can’t handle this anymore; I just […]
Oh weary brain
Oh, weary brain, please cease your ceaseless churn, Release me from the torment that makes my soul yearn. I beg of you, surrender your relentless strain, Grant me respite, let me escape this endless bane. Thoughts like vipers coil around my fragile mind, Twisting and tightening, no solace can I find. The weight of existence […]
The Birth of Community on top the Tree
Here I sit unmoving, my once vibrant skin decayed, Bugs and rumination have left me frayed, Living in stagnation, burdened with despair, My bark and branches dry, beyond repair. Borers infest my trunk, gnawing at my core, Diminishing the vivid imagination I bore, Misidentified, lost in self-flagellation’s snare, Yearning to break free from this weary […]
Blooming Rotted Roots
In deep crevices, my guilting cycles reside, Mind overgrown, weaving delusions as a guide, Rooting themselves deeper in unsettling lands, Unrevealed in darkness, where pain silently stands. Seeing the forest only for its rotten roots, Blind to the begotten beauty that takes its shoots, Mycelial branches of guilt, shame, and blame, Untouched by questioning, they […]
Perdition’s Rhyme
In the current rendition of my personal perdition’s plight, My condition leads, casting shadows in the fading light. Penance is paid in installments, a toll to be borne, Grace is expected, not adored, a truth ignored. Often mourned Honesty, a requirement, yet abhorred in its way, Mitigated by ego’s sway, causing dismay. But should I […]
Pilgrimage from my Hermitage
Nestled in comfort, I quietly sit Not alone in the embrace of my home Around the table, we gather and fit Sounds of the outside faintly roam Music, laughter, meals without disaster Rarely do I peer through the windowpane My mind, overgrown, hardened by plaster Life’s gifts often slip by in vain See how […]
Spinning Dichotomies Become Blended Reality
In the past, my understanding of the factors contributing to my anxiety was limited, leaving me uncertain about its underlying causes. I was always lost in the reasons for why I was bothered both physically and mentally. However, a significant shift has occurred as I now find myself gaining the ability to pinpoint the specific […]